Low carbin

- 12 eggs, fried in butter
- Half head of lettuce
- 6 oz cream cheese

Weigh in- 170.4
Plank: 2:40 maybe lil more

Low carb menu

- 11 eggs fried in butter
- Lettuce
- Mustard

Low carb menu

- 11 eggs fried in butter
- Lettuce
- Mustard

No eating at night :)

Forgiveness

- One egg
- Three eggs with half a head of lettuce

I think I was still full from the night before, to be honest.

For exercise (and fun), I took my dog for a stroll through the park... the one with waterfalls and bridges... and it lasted over half an hour -- just a little.

I think losing weight is about forgiveness.

Forgiving yourself for past sins and embracing the present... making one good choice after good choice and loving yourself enough to know that you deserve to eat good-for-you things...

When I was really big (over 300 lbs), I was just like "Well, fuck it... I'm fat anyway.." and I would hit the nearest dollar menu.

Yesterday, after my binge, I was like... not wanting to eat... feeling disgusting... but I forced myself to make a good choice...  I didn't even feel worthy for food -- which would have lead to super hunger that always lessens rational thought. 

Feeding yourself is loving yourself (or, in my case, hating myself and trying to shove it down with food, which was not good in the long-term or even really in the short-term)....

Just some thoughts... Working to figure it all out... 

Low carb menu

- Nine eggs
- Almost an entire sausage quiche (I added two extra eggs to the recipe, also)
- Half a head of lettuce

Ugh, I woke up and did like two super binges in the night.... cold quiche.  It's so... disheartening.  It was not even good cold, whereas heated up, it's amazing.

Will eating ever be normal for me?  Probably not. 

Oh, well... I'm ashamed of myself, but it is what it is. 

Low carb menu

- One egg
- Two eggs
- Four oz ribeye, lots of the fatty portions
- Two eggs
- Four eggs with 4.5 oz cream cheese
- A head of lettuce

Egg fest marches on...

- One egg
- Four eggs
- A head of lettuce
- Four eggs

All eggs fried in butter, about 1 tablespoon or less per pan usually...