Low carb menu

- Ten eggs, fried in butter
- A a head of lettuce
- Hamburger patty with a small tomato slice
- 1.66 oz cheese

Low carb menu

- Eight eggs, fried in butter
- 3/4 of a head of lettuce
- 3.32 oz cheese
- Mustard

Low carb menu

- Seven eggs, fried in butter
- 3/5 of a head of lettuce
- Shredded iceberg lettuce with some shredded cheese and a couple dollops of sour cream at grad party
- 1.66 oz cheese

LC menu

- 12 eggs, fried in butter
- 1.5 heads of lettuce
- Mustard
- 2.5 oz sunflower kernels

Weigh in: 160.6

Low carb menu

- Seven eggs, fried in butter
- 1/3 of a head of lettuce
- Mustard
- Side salad at a restaurant with iceberg and romaine lettuce, two cucumber slices, cheddar cheese and two ranch dressings (and more mustard)

Low carb menu

- Ten eggs, fried in butter
- Head of lettuce
- Mustard
- 5 oz cheddar cheese

Low carb menu

- Seven eggs, fried in butter (maybe a couple more, can't really remember)
- Almost a whole head of lettuce
- Mustarad
- 3.75 oz cheddar cheese

Low carb menu

- Eight eggs, fried in butter
- A little scant 3/4 head of lettuce
- Mustard

Weigh in: 163.4 (yay!)

Low carbin

- Ten eggs, fried in butter
- 1/3 lb burger patty
- 2 bratwursts (1 carb each)
-  Half a head o letuce
- Mustard

Low carb menu

- Five and a half eggs, fried in butter
- 1.3 heads of lettuce
- Mustard

Low carb menu

-14 eggs, fried in butter
- 3/4 head of lettuce
- Mustard

Low carb menu

- Nine eggs, fried in butter
- 1/2 head of lettuce
- Mustard

Low carb menu

- 12 eggs, fried in butter
- 3/4 head of lettuce
- 2/3 of a bottle of low carb ketchup (in the night, what gives?)
- Mustard

I only purchased one bottle of LC ketchup, no mayo -- just to kind of see how I would do on it.... When it's not in the house, I cannot eat it!

Low carb menu

- Five eggs, fried in butter
- 3/4 of a head of lettuce
- Mustard
- A little dish of chicken salad (chicken thighs, hard boiled egg, sf relish, mayo, salt, pepper and ez sweetz)
- Five turkey dogs (1 carb each) with low carb ketchup and mustard

Low carb menu

- Roasted chicken thigh
- 7.5 eggs, fried in butter
- Half a head of lettuce
- Mustard

Weigh in: 167.8

Headed to the doc today.....  Just for medication refills. 

Boyfriend is going to be moving out here in just over two months!

Low carb menu

- Seven eggs, fried in butter
- Half head of lettuce w/ mustard
- 1/4 of a raw zucchini
- 1/4 of a raw yellow squash
- 3 oz hamburger patty with a bite of cheese, mayo & mustard

Let me take your blood!

- 13 eggs, fried in butter
- A head -o- lettuce
-  mustard
- 3.5 oz sunflower seeds

Weigh in: 165.2 (yay)

I don't know if I mentioned this, but I'm back in school.  I do have my Bachelor's degree, but I'm going for an RN this time.

I'm currently seeking volunteers for the phlebotomy  portion  of the course. *Evil smile*

I almost feel bad for writing this... Like... I'm losing weight and still complaining?  Things still have not been perfect for me.

When I was feeling really disgusted, alone, abandoned last night... What did I do? I ate so much that I was uncomfortably full.  Sure, I made a "good choice," but it still sucks.

I need to have a go-to plan in place for when I am feeling like binging to numb the pain.  UGH.

Note to self: Make appointment for therapist.

Low carb menu

- 10 eggs, fried in butter
- 4 oz broccoli with butter
- 1.5 heads lettuce
- mustard

Take me out to the ball game

- 10 eggs, fried in butter (some medium eggies)
- Lettuce
- Mustard
- Five turkey hot dogs with lettuce (100 cals each, 1 carb each)

Low carb menu

- 10 eggs, fried in butter
- Half a head of lettuce
- Mustard
- 3 oz sunflower kernels

Weigh-in: 167.0 (yay)

Still egging it

- 10 eggs, fried in butter
- Mustard
- Lettuce - a little more than half a head

Steak and eggs

- Six eggs
- mustard
- a couple leaves of lettuce
- Three oz ribeye

LC menu

- 11 eggs, fried in butter
- Mustard
- Lettuce
- 7 oz ribeye with a couple fried mushrooms

Low carb menu

- 10 eggs fried in butter
- Lettuce
- Mustard

Low carbin

- 12 eggs, fried in butter
- Half head of lettuce
- 6 oz cream cheese

Weigh in- 170.4
Plank: 2:40 maybe lil more

Low carb menu

- 11 eggs fried in butter
- Lettuce
- Mustard

Low carb menu

- 11 eggs fried in butter
- Lettuce
- Mustard

No eating at night :)

Forgiveness

- One egg
- Three eggs with half a head of lettuce

I think I was still full from the night before, to be honest.

For exercise (and fun), I took my dog for a stroll through the park... the one with waterfalls and bridges... and it lasted over half an hour -- just a little.

I think losing weight is about forgiveness.

Forgiving yourself for past sins and embracing the present... making one good choice after good choice and loving yourself enough to know that you deserve to eat good-for-you things...

When I was really big (over 300 lbs), I was just like "Well, fuck it... I'm fat anyway.." and I would hit the nearest dollar menu.

Yesterday, after my binge, I was like... not wanting to eat... feeling disgusting... but I forced myself to make a good choice...  I didn't even feel worthy for food -- which would have lead to super hunger that always lessens rational thought. 

Feeding yourself is loving yourself (or, in my case, hating myself and trying to shove it down with food, which was not good in the long-term or even really in the short-term)....

Just some thoughts... Working to figure it all out... 

Low carb menu

- Nine eggs
- Almost an entire sausage quiche (I added two extra eggs to the recipe, also)
- Half a head of lettuce

Ugh, I woke up and did like two super binges in the night.... cold quiche.  It's so... disheartening.  It was not even good cold, whereas heated up, it's amazing.

Will eating ever be normal for me?  Probably not. 

Oh, well... I'm ashamed of myself, but it is what it is. 

Low carb menu

- One egg
- Two eggs
- Four oz ribeye, lots of the fatty portions
- Two eggs
- Four eggs with 4.5 oz cream cheese
- A head of lettuce

Egg fest marches on...

- One egg
- Four eggs
- A head of lettuce
- Four eggs

All eggs fried in butter, about 1 tablespoon or less per pan usually...