Sometimes, I treat my food addiction (specifically carbohydrate addiction) like I'm a true addict and I just need to make it through the day to be okay. This may be a little bit dramatic to some people, but for me, one small mistake can spiral into a day, then a week, then a month or months of bad choices and me slipping back into active addiction... and weight gain.
In good news, I got through the dinner without even eating anything bad! It was really only on my first plate that I was a little bit resentful of my table-mates eating high-carb fare, but I made the decision ahead of time that I was going to stay on plan.
"If you don't stand for something," I reminded myself, "you will fall for anything."
- Leftover low carb sweet and sour chicken thigh pieces (not at buffet - in fridge)
- Half pound burger with tomato, onions, mustard, mayo and low carb ketchup on a oopsie roll
- Two cheesy hot dogs with onions, mustard and low carb ketchup on an oopsie roll
At Chinese buffet:
- Egg drop soup with green onions on top
- Side salad with iceberg lettuce, eggs, cucumbers, bacon bits and ranch
- Four chicken kebabs
- Sauteed green beans
- Some broccoli with beef (not much of the beef or sauce because I was unsure of what was low carb)
I consider that pretty much a success. After writing it all out, it's no wonder why I was so full after I left the place!
In bad news, in the bathroom after the Chinese restaurant, the handicapped toilet was SO LOW and nasty that I literally put a little bit of weight on my non-weight bearing leg. Can you say OUCHIE!? I really hope that I didn't mess anything up, internally.
See, where they did my osteotomy, they inserted a wedge of bone from my iliac crest into the bottom of my femur and new bone growth will fill in the spaces. While I'm healing just as expected, it still scared me because I'm not supposed to be bearing weight on that leg at all.
In good news, now that I chose low carb fare at the Chinese place, I feel that I could eat low carb at any ol' place. My go-to option is usually a double cheese burger, 86 the bun (waitress speak for no bun) with green beans or another low-carb option in the place of the typical high-carb chips or fries. I like side salads, love when they have cottage cheese, but even at Denny's, the green beans are pretty good.
While last night was my gf's birthday, it sure didn't feel like it. She had to work late and after we got home from dinner, she basically just wanted to crash. I say that it didn't feel like her birthday only because her card and gifts are just sitting here, in all their blue-ribbon glory. I stuck them in the closet because I don't want to look at them all day. I'm sure she will open them soon. Or let's hope so.
I think she was saddened by the news that she got about a gorgeous and very intelligent eclectus, that she had to give up to move in with me. With me being allergic to birds and her old roommate being unable to take care of her, she gave her up as a consignment bird. Luckily (in my opinion), nobody purchased her, so she will go down to an all-natural bird sanctuary in Florida, but the bad news is that the gf will not get to see her again. How sad is that? It's bittersweet because the bird is going to have a great life, living with a flock and will have the chance to find a lifelong mate, as they mate for life. I think it's a sweet little story, but I can see how not seeing her again would leave a bad taste in her mouth. It's sad yet happy for the bird, who will live such a better life than any home could provide her.
Notice how life is often times a double edged sword?